By God… what kind of balance is this, tell us honestly what is the real balance by which nations weigh their children.
Initially, from a point of clarity not pretension, I affirm that the love for the homeland and loyalty to its Hashemite leadership, headed by His Majesty King Abdullah II bin Al-Hussein, may God protect and preserve him, are beyond reproach, and there is no room for skepticism. These values were never mere slogans we raise when needed, but are practices rooted in behavior and personal and family history. A significant number of family members have served in civil and military national institutions, fulfilling their duty with dedication and integrity, away from the limelight and noise.
On a personal level, I do not claim heroism, nor do I seek acknowledgement. It is enough for me to say that I was – and still am – an unrecognized soldier in service of the homeland. There were specific situations and circumstances that required me to act silently, where I took the lead for the interest of the country and its leadership.
I write today not to outbid anyone, but to warn, not to doubt, but to call for the correction of a meandering path, believing that the highest degrees of loyalty are honesty when silence is costly.
This article is not a job application, nor an attempt for position, nor an attempt to record a late personal stance. The writer of these lines has spent more than four decades serving the nation, the Hashemite family, and senior state officials and Jordanian citizens through various positions, in civil and military institutions, both domestically and abroad, performing his duty with available effort and dedication, without waiting for compensation or privilege. What I write here today is not born of individual frustration, but from a cumulative sense of national responsibility, imposing on those who have experienced and lived through transformations, to clearly point out all the flaws.
Remaining silent about mistakes, when it becomes a pattern, is not wisdom but an indirect participation in its outcomes. From this perspective, this article is a sincere critical reading of paths that if continued as they are, their returns will not only be administrative, but will also extend to affect public trust, institutional cohesion, and the internal immunity of the nation. For the honest warning, no matter how harsh it may seem, remains the truest and deepest form of loyalty.
So what kind of equation is it that makes long service burdensome, sincere silence marginalizing, and sacrifice an endless waiting ticket?
We are not newcomers to this nation, nor are we transient guests in its history. We are its children who were raised on one idea: that the nation is built with knowledge, protected by work, and preserved by loyalty. To its Hashemite leadership and its royal system, our ancestors planted, our fathers persevered, and we continued the path with a firm belief that those who serve sincerely are not sidelined, and those who give unaccountably are not forgotten. And that a Jordanian remains a son of the nation no matter how harsh the circumstances and the passage of time.
We served the nation wherever asked: in offices, and on the harsh fields of honor, more in the shadows than in the light. We did not raise our voices for privileges, and we did not master the art of complaint, but rather preferred patience, considering it part of belonging. We stood with the nation not because we awaited something in return, but because we believe that homelands are not negotiable.
However, what we see today requires us to ask, not out of rebellion, but out of a desire to understand. How does someone who was never on the side of the nation turn into a holder of decision and position, how are doors flung open for those who publicly harmed the nation, and firmly closed against those who were loyal and hardworking.
How does being close to power become more important than being close to truth, and relationships become more valuable than skills, and noise more significant than silent work?
We are not against anyone, nor are we guardians of patriotism. But we refuse that it be redefined in a way that empties it of its correct meaning. We refuse for loyalty to turn into a seasonal slogan, competence into a minor detail, and justice into a delayed promise that never comes. We refuse to feel, we the sons of this class, as second-class citizens in a nation we contributed to building and protecting.
Here comes the more painful question: Were we naive when we believed that integrity is a path, not a burden? Or is the game run by rules we were not told about, and paths we were not allowed to enter? Did we err when we believed that the nation belongs to all?
What is most dangerous in this reality is not the deprivation of positions or the stalling of transactions and projects, but the erosion of faith in meaning. When the loyal feel that their loyalty is unseen, and their patience unappreciated, the real rift begins; a rift in trust between the citizen and the concept of justice, between effort and outcome, between the nation and its faithful children.
We do not seek the impossible, nor are we looking for handouts. We ask for clarity, and a standard to attain our simplest rights, few of which we would obtain except through the justice of the courts after a long wait. We ask for a balance that tilts only towards truth. We hope that the son of this nation feels that his path, however long, leads somewhere, not into the void.
I implore you today from the heart by God, if you or your relatives or acquaintances have a magic recipe for promotion and empowerment, tell us about it, so we do not die standing at the doors of waiting. And if not, then save what remains of certainty in our chests, before loyalty turns into disappointment, and patience into regret, in the hearts of the nation's sons.
May God protect dear Jordan, our free, proud, and towering nation, under the leadership of His Majesty King Abdullah II bin Al-Hussein, may God protect and preserve him.
